New year

I feel like I am just spinning my wheels in a muddy patch of grass, in a fog.

I was doing so well and feeling good about myself, then I get sick and in the hospital. After I got out and was feeling better, the anxiety started. The weight gain began and I wasn't even eating more. I don't know what I was doing but something wasn't right. Lots of doctors appointments, tests, and more tests. CAT scans and PET scans and X-Rays and blood draws, and sleep studies and UGH! TOO MUCH!

Then we had the stress of trying to find a place to live. We managed to find something. I hope it turns into a long term arrangement as I do like it here so far. I need some motivation. I need...SOMETHING. I feel a bit lost.

With the holidays over and spending the entire time moving, it is back to the daily grind. I just want to feel myself again. Depression? Probably part of it. I am on meds but they are not helping. Need something else.

2014 has to be a better year. Right?