Day 2: Still doing well.

Was late for work cause Brian insisted on making me my diet breakfast: eggs and two pieces of turkey bacon. I took it to go cause I was running late but how sweet! It was so good too.. then I got to work and someone irritated me right off the bat. IDK what is going on but it really irritates me.

For lunch, I had another roast beef and turkey lettuce wrap with CHEESE this time. Much better job of filling me up today than yesterday.

Came home and was pretty hungry. Had my skirt steak with fauxtatoes (steamed and mashed cauliflower with cheese and butter)...I scarfed it down.

I am taking my meds and only feel a tiny bit jittery in the afternoon time. I have had no trouble sleeping at all, which was something I was worried about.

One of the meds I am on is an appetite suppressant which doesn't seem to be totally working yet? lol

One thing I have noticed though is that it is NOT affecting my blood sugar in a negative way...so yay to that!

I hope to see some results from this...

Meanwhile I am playing Sims 4 and chatting with my homey. :) TTFN

Renewed Purpose

Things have been kind of crazy for me over the past year. Lots of medical doctors and tests and weight gained and lost and gained more and yet more tests. I am poked and prodded and it is getting old.

The only thing that has been steadily positive is my blood sugar. My A1C is 6 and that is great!

So I changed doctors who changed my meds and I do feel better but there are so many other factors that are going on that they are still trying to get to the bottom of..

I am now on iron infusion therapy cause I am severely anemic and my body would not absorb the iron pills.

I also started Dr. G's today. A weight loss program that my company has as a client, I got it as a bonus kind of thing as in FREE. So I thought, why not give it a shot.

Today was my official start date.

Breakfast: I had cinnamon cottage cheese with almonds for breakfast and I forgot my celery sticks.  I won't tomorrow!!

Lunch: Turkey and Roast beef lettuce wrap... was delicious but I forgot the cheese...

Dinner will be chicken breast with cauliflower butter, and cheese. (aka fauxtatoes which is a great substitute for potatoes and a nice low carb option)

I really hope I see results. So far today I am only mildy hungry right now.

I will try to post an update here to keep track of my progress since I don't really use this for anything else.

I say to no one in particular. :)

No one reads this....

I don't know why I continue to come here and post crap. I don't do it often enough cause I feel like I have absolutely nothing to say anymore. I am seriously depressed and feeling really bad about myself. I am on an anti-depressant so I guess it isn't working right?

I need some motivation.

New year

I feel like I am just spinning my wheels in a muddy patch of grass, in a fog.

I was doing so well and feeling good about myself, then I get sick and in the hospital. After I got out and was feeling better, the anxiety started. The weight gain began and I wasn't even eating more. I don't know what I was doing but something wasn't right. Lots of doctors appointments, tests, and more tests. CAT scans and PET scans and X-Rays and blood draws, and sleep studies and UGH! TOO MUCH!

Then we had the stress of trying to find a place to live. We managed to find something. I hope it turns into a long term arrangement as I do like it here so far. I need some motivation. I need...SOMETHING. I feel a bit lost.

With the holidays over and spending the entire time moving, it is back to the daily grind. I just want to feel myself again. Depression? Probably part of it. I am on meds but they are not helping. Need something else.

2014 has to be a better year. Right?