Hubby and I are going through a round of fertility stuff. After finding out his sperm count was on the low end, he went to a urologist and found out he has varicoceles, which is like varicose veins in the scrotum. Fun stuff huh? There is a fix for it (surgery) but his Uro wanted him to do another SA (semen analysis) to be sure. He did and my doctor said, "Hey, we can work with that!" So, now the plan is to go ahead with the fun tasks (shots, ultrasounds and blood tests galore) of a double IUI next month. Before I can do that though, I had to go through an HSG which stands for something actually longer and harder to pronounce. I did it today. I was told it would be horribly painful and to brace myself but my experience was not painful at a all. Want the TMI? Ok, well they take some dye and they stick it up your uterus and see if it goes out into your body cavity thru x-ray. If it doesn't then that means you have a blockage in your tubes which could prevent ovulation/pregnancy. But the good news is, my tubes are not blocked and everything looks hunky dory! YAY!
So now I am supposedly especially fertile and will be working on that this weekend! Then be ready for next month... I am excited, nervous, and apprehensive. So many emotions because we have been trying for so very long. Plus it has been 11 years since I gave birth! To add to the pressure and emotions, it seems I am surrounded by pregnant people! A lot of the people I care about and who are close to me are either pregnant or about to give birth or just gave birth... and it has been tough on me. BUT I a hopeful that this is now our time. Please pray for us to have a little lemon of our own. :)
Friday, July 31, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
The Package Deal: A Sloppy Review
So here I am wide awake at nearly 4 A.M. when I have to work today. Oy! Silly me for picking up a book when it's time to sleep! OH! AND I mowed part of our acreage so I should be totally SACKED OUT... but no, I guess my sleep time will be on the carpool to work with the hubster. That seems to be our routine lately. Sleep on the way in, sleep on the way home. Sometimes sleep when I get home too. Not sure what THAT is about because my blood sugars are FABU. Anyway...
The reason for my late night vigil this evening is because I just finished a book. The Package Deal by Izzy Rose. Being a stepmom myself, this book totally jumped out at me in Target screaming, "BUY ME NOW! " The minute I read the first page, I was hooked. I totally dug this chic's style and humor from the get-go. I found myself stopping and re-reading something aloud to my husband, get a chuckle, and continue on. The book is about a stylish, career woman who finds herself in love and engaged to a dad of two boys. Boys that, strangely, remind me a lot of MY boys. Then promptly moves across the country with no job and becomes a full-time stay-at-home "mom" of sorts. Yikes!
Izzy did a great job of relating her story in a way that I could still relate to in a serious way. The "how the hell did I end up here?" and "what the HELL am I doing?" totally rang true with me as I found myself asking those questions many times in the early years of our marriage and then even more so when we got custody of OSD. How does one take care of children that is not of your loins without stepping on toes and boundaries, etc? I knew how to parent my OWN kids but when it came time to deal with the stepkids, I was lost. I seemed to find my way eventually and we had our ups and downs. This is what Izzy tells in her story. The ups and downs, the triumphs and the heartaches that every family has but in her case, this was all new territory and I think she did a bang up job! If you are a stepmom or even if you aren't, go pick it up. Be ready to laugh and cry as you recall your own issues you faced in your (step)family sagas. And check out her blog/stepmom battle cry for help site at www.stepmothersmilk.com.
Speaking of my own stepkids, we have still not seen the SKs. Bri calls every time it's "his turn" and there is always something else. OSD sent Bri a message on facebook that she "was in town and wants to come by for a visit". Well, obviously, she knows we don't do last minute and Bri told her that we couldn't do anything that evening but call and we can set something up. Cause it's not like we wouldn't LIKE to see her cause we would! I don't know where all the anomosity and hatred is coming from. Her reply to him was something along the lines of "I won't be able to come back up there until after the spring semester. Oh well" SPRING semester? I told Bri to write her back and say, "Well see you next spring!" but he didn't. I don't know if he wrote her back at all. He is not a very outspoken man about his feelings but I know this whole thing with his kids is hurting him. It has been peaceful on the BM front, I think, only because the kids haven't come over. Anyway, I miss them and I, unfortunately, don't think they will ever come over again without a court battle. I don't want that. We already did that and it seems we are back at square one anyway. Plus, peace is nice.
The reason for my late night vigil this evening is because I just finished a book. The Package Deal by Izzy Rose. Being a stepmom myself, this book totally jumped out at me in Target screaming, "BUY ME NOW! " The minute I read the first page, I was hooked. I totally dug this chic's style and humor from the get-go. I found myself stopping and re-reading something aloud to my husband, get a chuckle, and continue on. The book is about a stylish, career woman who finds herself in love and engaged to a dad of two boys. Boys that, strangely, remind me a lot of MY boys. Then promptly moves across the country with no job and becomes a full-time stay-at-home "mom" of sorts. Yikes!
Izzy did a great job of relating her story in a way that I could still relate to in a serious way. The "how the hell did I end up here?" and "what the HELL am I doing?" totally rang true with me as I found myself asking those questions many times in the early years of our marriage and then even more so when we got custody of OSD. How does one take care of children that is not of your loins without stepping on toes and boundaries, etc? I knew how to parent my OWN kids but when it came time to deal with the stepkids, I was lost. I seemed to find my way eventually and we had our ups and downs. This is what Izzy tells in her story. The ups and downs, the triumphs and the heartaches that every family has but in her case, this was all new territory and I think she did a bang up job! If you are a stepmom or even if you aren't, go pick it up. Be ready to laugh and cry as you recall your own issues you faced in your (step)family sagas. And check out her blog/stepmom battle cry for help site at www.stepmothersmilk.com.
Speaking of my own stepkids, we have still not seen the SKs. Bri calls every time it's "his turn" and there is always something else. OSD sent Bri a message on facebook that she "was in town and wants to come by for a visit". Well, obviously, she knows we don't do last minute and Bri told her that we couldn't do anything that evening but call and we can set something up. Cause it's not like we wouldn't LIKE to see her cause we would! I don't know where all the anomosity and hatred is coming from. Her reply to him was something along the lines of "I won't be able to come back up there until after the spring semester. Oh well" SPRING semester? I told Bri to write her back and say, "Well see you next spring!" but he didn't. I don't know if he wrote her back at all. He is not a very outspoken man about his feelings but I know this whole thing with his kids is hurting him. It has been peaceful on the BM front, I think, only because the kids haven't come over. Anyway, I miss them and I, unfortunately, don't think they will ever come over again without a court battle. I don't want that. We already did that and it seems we are back at square one anyway. Plus, peace is nice.
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